Facebook
Mood:  down
Facebook is a great reminder of how wonderfully everyone else's life is going and how mine is still so shitty.  My sister just got married. My brother is enjoying his career, his inheritance, his new car, my mom loves projecting that she's the portait of the perfect mother.  D is enjoying motherhood and being a lovely wife.  K is loveing her son and her blossoming music career. Etc Etc Etc  Everyone has something going on in life and I have nothing.  I have two kids my mom picked up from the babysitters' while I was as work back in 2006 and claims to everyone I ABANDONED them, so I can't see them because of her habitual lying.  I still am friends with the sitter that I allegedly abandonded them with.  Now, riddle me this; WHY would this person continue to be my friend or even have anything at all to do with me if that's really what occured???  I have no car.  I have not been able to finish a college education because unlike my brother Brian no one has been around to kiss my ass and constantly send me money so I had to take out student loans which are now in default because of my shambled life.  I'm such a failure.  My mom always goes on about how much she's done for me.  So, yeah, thanks for abandoning me with an alcoholic drug addict when I was for.  Way to parent.  YOU are the abandoner.  I know all too well what's it's like to be abandoned and heartbroken I could never could never not in a million years do that to my own children.  Anyone who knows anything at all about me would know Joshua was my entire world.  It's heart-breaking.  I have to go throw up now.  I've never had anyone.