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don't askTopic: Pissy
I've had an abusive boyfriend in my life since 2006. He's physically, mentally and emotionally abusive. He is legally seperated, has been since 2006, but refuses to get divorced. It's not like I'd EVER marry him, but we do have a son together and at some point that's going to be confusing for him. SO. you'll eventually get more details in my adventures in abuse, but for now I just want to rant. In June 2009 he burglarized my apartment, broke through BOTH glass doors just because I wouldn't talk to him. In February of 2009 he was arrested for assaulting me, and the same situation in January of the same year. Now these are not the first arrests or incidents of violence. So, he's had these warrants for quite some time. Today, Halloween, he was FINALLY arrested and I had been looking for some much needed time off from him. He received letter MONTHS ago saying that his pre-trial agreement had been violated and they were revoking his bond for committing more crimes against me while out on bond for the same exact things. Well, apparently having your bond revoked doesn't mean much around here bucause I've just now found out they're letting him go for $1,250. Juuuust effing perfect. So, then he can come back here pissed off about being broke for having to pay his bond because clearly EVERYTHING is my fault. If it weren't for me he wouldn't have to hit me, it's my fault if I call the police bc he's hit me, etc etc etc. If you know anything about domestic violence cycles you already know what I mean. Where his cycles differ from most abusive men is that we don't go through a "honeymoon" stage. He just doesn't care. It's like he has no conscience. SERIOUSLY!!! He never has shown remorse or even admitted what he's done. When I bring it up he says I'm crazy, bipolar and he's never laid a finger on me...what a psycho. I wish I were in a better position in life to get the FUCK away from him. I'm unemployed, I stay at home with our Autistic son. My driver's license is suspended for unpaid tickets all the way back in 2005. I don't have a car. I have a completely unsupportive, selfish, uncaring, unkind family. I depend on him soley, financially. When our son was younger, I tried to have him and daycare and keep a job but he refused to pay any amount at all towards the daycare. And you know how expensive that can be. He has a job that pays over triple what I would be making. He always hates when I have a job anyway and does thing to embarrass me at work or keep me from going to work since I don't drive. He knows money could mean my independence, therefore he hates it. On the other hand, he LLOOOOOOVES to tell me how I'm just a mooch, and I'm pathetic for not working, etc. It's a lose lose situation. I'm just so resentful and angry these days, and that didn't used to be me!!!!!!